From time to time, we may find ourselves asking, “What is my life purpose?”
Some of us may be able to answer that immediately, some of us may not.
There were times when I thought I have found it: the answer to my ultimate life purpose–but then I looked into it closer, questioned it and I wasn’t sure anymore. So I searched again.
It became an infinite loop I could not escape.
I used to think that knowing my life purpose would be the key to deal with those times when my life seemed too calm or too chaotic (never truly satisfied, are we?). As if knowing the answer would give me all the assurance, motivation, inspiration, and permission to march through life, knowing for certain where I’m going and that I’m taking the straightest path to get there…
I almost forgot that in 2014 I learned about how we’d never find “the ultimate answer” because no matter what, we’d always have another question to ask.
That’s why in my January newsletter I told you that I just wanted this year to be the year of play: the year to explore, to reconnect with my curiosity, playfulness, and excitement, to do the things I want to do without worrying too much about what will come out of them.
A few days ago, while washing dishes, my mind went to one afternoon a long time ago, when I was still working full time. We were in one of our weekly team meetings at the office and we were talking about ‘role’. We were asking each other, what role would we choose in the office, if that role had nothing to do with our job titles, tasks, or functions.
Someone said, he’d be the clown, making people laugh with his jokes and funny impressions.
Someone else said, she’d be the decorator, making things look neat, pretty, and artistic.
Someone said, he’d be the problem solver.
Someone said, she’d be the cheerleader.
Someone said, he’d be the dreamer.
Someone said, she’d be the devil’s advocate.
“What role would I be happy to play in life today / this week / this month / this year / at this stage of my life?”
When I think about it, this question feels lighter and more playful than what-is-your-life-purpose, but it can also give us a hint about where we may wish to go.
What role would you be happy to play in life?
What role would you choose for yourself at work, at home, at school, among friends, that had nothing to do with your assigned function, expectations, duties, or assumed responsibilities?
What role would you not mind filling?
When I asked this question to myself the other day, it was funny that what came to mind immediately, was serving food.
I have always felt a strange pull towards kitchens, cooking, and food, as you can see here and here.
I guess what I love about serving food is that warm and fuzzy feeling of making or preparing something for others and seeing them enjoying the things I make. It’s a lovely feeling to see the immediate impact of ‘serving’ and the experience of sharing: to see someone’s hunger is finally satiated, to get someone’s appetite back, to share stories upon rows and rows of pans and plates and bowls, to come out of of the interaction feeling full, nourished, and satisfied.
Funny enough, if I choose to see ‘serving food’ as a metaphor for what I do: writing, drawing, creating content, or just being present in life in general–I can see how the role is still somewhat valid.
So, for the time being, I’ll be playing around with this role.
Let me know what role you’d happy to play this year!
pertanyaan ini pun beberapa tahun kebelakang menjadi pertanyaanku juga Mbak Hanny.
Aku pun sempet mencoba beberapa role yang kupikir merupakan jodohku, yang ternyata engga juga. Sampai tahun kemarin ternyata beberapa hal yang dilakukan melabuhkanku dengan role sebagai supporter.
wow, this is great! we need more supporters and cheerleaders in the world!!!
Menarik! mengganti pertanyaan life purpose yang terasa sangat berat dengan pertanyaan ‘what role’ itu emang beneran jadi terasa lebih mudah untuk dijawab.
Jawabanku tetap sama seperti komen di post sebelumnya, yaitu fotografi. karena akupun tidak pernah keberatan kalo aku ga pernah masuk foto, dan melihat kebahagiaan mereka yang melihat hasil foto-foto dokumentasinya yang lagi ketawa bareng temen-temennya tanpa harus pose dan sadar kamera.
organic and raw moment yang berhasil tertangkap kamera tuh rasanya memuaskan karena keberhasilan menangkap mereka sebagai mereka apa adanya, tanpa jaim atau kedok pose senyum lebar ala model cover majalah.
Dan tahun ini, aku ingin punya role sebagai seorang documentary photographer untuk para makers, craftsman, para pengrajin. mendokumentikan proses kreatif mereka, sambil ngobrol dan menyerap semua cerita dan inspirasi dari hidupnya.
i wish i can make it this year!
aaaaah, let’s make this happen! let me know if I can do anything to help! feel free to email me 🙂