Dan langkah-langkah kita adalah detak yang menahan waktu agar berjatuhan sedikit lebih pelan. Seperti gerimis yang bisa nampak sebagai jarum-jarum halus atau butiran embun—tergantung seberapa cepat jantung kita berdegup.

I’ll close my eyes, I’ll find you by following my heartbeat… dan buatku, itu adalah detak sepatumu pada aspal. Pada jalanan yang panas, kering dan berdebu. Pada hari-hari hujan yang becek, kotor dan lengket. Pada genggaman tangan yang harus terpisah sekejap ketika pohon besar meretakkan trotoar; tumbuh di tengah-tengahnya seperti sesuatu yang tidak pada tempatnya.

Hei—hati-hati! Dan kita menghindari lubang ketika ada. Sepeda motor yang tiba-tiba merangsek dari belakang. Meniti jalan sempit yang dipenuhi penjaja makanan agar tidak terjatuh ke dalam selokan. Meraih satu sama lain ketika terantuk. Lihat itu! Menunjuk ke berbagai arah ketika pandangan jatuh hati pada pintu-pintu dan jendela. Mengendap-endap menghindari pasangan-pasangan yang tengah berpelukan di taman, lalu melompat-lompat di sekitar danau yang diterangi lampu-lampu kecil. Memandangi daun-daun gugur dan kaki-kaki kita yang berjalan beriringan.

+ Kita sudah berjalan lama, apakah kakimu sakit?

– Tak apa, selama ada kamu tak mengapa…

Dan kita pun terus berjalan.

hanny

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