I was running late for work. So I didn’t change my shirt. The evening’s drinks left a lingering taste in my mouth.*

You know it’s right because it’s light. You know it’s right because your heart is clear. You know it’s right because your mind is free from fear. You know it’s right because you stop worrying. You know it’s right because you can just take it all in or let it all out–and both feel equally satisfying. You know it’s right because you don’t really think about what can possibly go wrong: chances are, things can actually go right.

And when I left. You were fast asleep. Tangled in the sheets. And on the bus I could have sworn it was all a dream. And it didn’t happen to me.*

You know it’s right because it’s bright. You know it’s right because it feels so damn good. You know it’s right because you’re happy. You know it’s right because you feel pretty. You know it’s right because when you’re standing in front of a mirror, you really like what you see. You know it’s right because wherever you go, whatever you do, and whomever you’re with, you keep on seeing the best in you and the best in them.

And then I felt the scrapes. From the slippery subway grate. Oh, how you laughed. At my complete lack of grace.*

You know it’s right because you can simply be–without the need to even try. You know it’s right because you always mean what you say. You know it’s right because you do not say the things you do not mean. You know it’s right because when you mean it, you feel it. You know it’s right because you are who you are. You know it’s right because you never need to question ‘what-did-I-do-wrong’. You know it’s right because the other person does not give you a reason to ever doubt yourself. You know it’s right because you live in the now.

But I could not recall. A more perfect fall. Cause when I looked up into your eyes. It didn’t hurt at all.*

You know it’s right because it doesn’t feel like a fight. You know it’s right because you don’t have to worry about winning or losing. You know it’s right because the two of you are equally bad at playing games. You know it’s right because you say and hear thank you. You know it’s right because you say and hear sorry. You know it’s right because each word carries the same weight, meaning, and importance for both of you. You know it’s right because when the other person looks into your eyes, you let your feeling shows.

And I thought, be still my heart. This could be a brand new start, with you. And it will be clear. If I wake up and you’re still here with me in the morning.*

You know it’s right because the other person appreciates the great little things you do–when all the while, you only think of them as ‘little things’. You know it’s right because though the circumstances may not be ideal, that doesn’t bother you the least. You know it’s right because you can talk to the other person for hours and be silent with the other person for hours–and none feels even close to awkward. You know it’s right because it feels effortlessly nice. You know it’s right because it feels like gratitude.

{Our first rain of the season is here, he said. And it smells beautiful. And if you were here, I want to give you a kiss. Upside-down. Spiderman-style. She chuckled to that and the world continued to shower her with glittering pixy dust.}
*the lyrics from The Postal Service’s Be Still My Heart–a wonderful song 🙂
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocGKSFzLYvM
 

hanny

29 Responses

  1. damn…hampir nangiiiis..:(
    I really really really heart this song and I remember how this song could really bring my emotional level at some point.
    *kesel…sedih..tapi seneng dan merinding*
    😀

    1. aaaaaw, aku baru nemu lagu itu karena my muse suka Postal Service, terus dia bilang kamu harus denger mereka di YouTube, terus pas aku cari aku nemu lagu ini dan aku bilang ke dia, I love this song! Dan dia bilang, OMG aku malah nggak pernah tau dan nggak pernah denger ada lagu itu! :)) :)) :))

      1. yup..aku denger postal sejak kuliah (btw ternyata aku, kamu dan mamir seangkatan :))) ) tapi baru denger lagu yang ini sekitar 3 tahun lalu pas lagi mellow huks

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