Saya memandangi bulan malam itu dan memikirkan kamu.
Tiba-tiba sebuah pola yang nyaris tak terlihat menggores permukaan bulan, membentuk baris-baris kata yang berbunyi: “I’m not here”.
Bahkan bulan tidak lagi bisa mengkompensasi ketidakhadiran kamu di sini.
Atta: saya sangat ingin berlabuh di suatu dermaga; tidak peduli lagi akan berlabuh di dermaga yang sama–atau di dermaga yang lain. Capek berlayar nih, mana musim tsunami 🙁
I believe the 'old'—as are goodbyes, has its own charm. I look at it like a family trinket, an antique shop, a vintage market. There are precious things in there, attracting you and your eyes only—if only you know where to look.
This year, I learned to accept the days when I don't feel motivated, tired, or a bit grumpy. I learned to allow myself to sit with this feeling instead of feeling guilty about it and forcing myself to be productive, socialize, or just get things done.
In the end, self-care is not always about doing the things that make us feel good or give us instant gratification. It's also about doing the RIGHT thing: something that is good for us in the long run—even if it may feel hard at times.
I am an Indonesian writer/artist/illustrator and stationery web shop owner (Cafe Analog) based in Amsterdam, the Netherlands. I love facilitating writing/creative workshops and retreats, especially when they are tied to self-exploration and self-expression. In Indonesian, 'beradadisini' means being here. So, here I am, documenting life—one word at a time.
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indah… sungguh-sungguh indah!
Thanks, much. I don’t think it deserves that wonderful comment 🙂
hanny
mungkin sudah waktunya untuk berlabuh ke dermaga yang lain?
atau?
wish u all the best ya dear
*hug mode ON*
Atta: saya sangat ingin berlabuh di suatu dermaga; tidak peduli lagi akan berlabuh di dermaga yang sama–atau di dermaga yang lain. Capek berlayar nih, mana musim tsunami 🙁
lho…han…lu lagi berlayar???
kan…ga bilang2 sih..jangan lupa oleh2 ya 🙂
anyway…bagus koq han.serius deh.
joe: hihihi iya nih lagi berlayar tapi masih terkatung-katung di lautan tanpa tujuan, tak tahu di mana harus berlabuh …